I always think the worst. Always. No matter what the situation, I always imagine - and expect the worst to happen. I think I do it becuase, by expecting the worst to happen, if it doesn't or if it is even slightly less bad, it is still a relief.
Just after Christmas, My right breast started to ache. I assumed it was a cycle thing and that it would go away in a few days. It took me six weeks to wake up and realize that maybe I should see a doctor. During that time, I found a pea sized lump in my breast, right smack in the center of where the pain emanates from.
Now it is the size of a small marble.
I will be seeing my doctor on the 12th, and since I have had mammograms before, if another is ordered, at least we have a good baseline to compare with.
I am trying REALLY hard to stay positive. Lots of lumps are nothing, and since I have fibrous breasts already, my chances of having a nothing lump are better than most. Add to that, the lump is behind some scar tissue. So this could also just be a bit of inflamed scar tissue at work.
Regardless, Each time a spike of pain stabs through my breast I start to breath faster, my heart rate increases and I get light headed with the worry. I try really hard to just not think about it. After all, nothing can be done until I see the doctor, so I should not waste my time worrying about it.
I know it could be nothing, but honestly? I am terrified that it's something.
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POSITIVE, HAPPY, HEALTHY thoughts...and some prayers - I'll keep sending them on.
Hang in there!
(((hugs)))
They always tell me to cut back on caffiene because of the fibrous-ness (?) of mine...
okay, I know yours is a serious situation, but I have to tell you about my situation: I found a lump the other day in the shower and nearly had a heart attack - like totally freaking out, hyperventilating... it was bad ... until I realized it was a pimple. Then I nearly died because I was so freaked out over nothing.
I'm totally a hypochondriac. I understand how you feel. Try to remain as calm as possible until you know whats going on! Good Luck.
That is exactly what happened to me a year ago. Ended up being that because I had lost weight I was noticing a lump that had been there before. And in fact had been ultrasounded in September 06. Did my Dr. fill me in on all of that? Nope, just sent me for another mammo, which of course, required another ultrasound. Stupid Dr.
I, too, have the fibrous lumps.
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