Questions I can't ask

My mom dies when I was 17, she had lung cancer. At the time, I did not realize that the older I grew, the more questions I would have for her.

I found out VIA my father that she had lumpy breasts like me and had the same pain I deal with. But I can;t ask my dad about her period. Mine has gotten weird ever since my tubes were tied, and I wish I could ask her about it.

I never had her by my side during my pregnancy's and the births. I did not have her there, available for me to call when my kids were tiny. Hell, she isn't there when I need to ask questions about my soon to be 9 year old!

I wish that I had the time to ask her these things.